Sendong,Ondoy at Pedring...Mga sugo ni Inang Kalikasan

Kamakailan lang ay muli nating naranasan ang hagupit ni Inang Kalikasan sa pamamagitan ng kanyang mga sugo. Sina Sendong, Ondoy at Pedring.

Napakaraming tumulong, napakaraming umunawa at nakiramay sa ating mga kababayang lubos na naapektuhan. Sa totoo lang, napakaraming mukha ng kabayanihan ang lumalabas sa tuwing hinahagupit tayo ng sakuna at mga panganib na dala ng bawat palo ni Inang Kalikasan. Hindi maialis sa aking isipan ang larawan ng isang lalaki na hawak hawak ang isang patay na bata sa kasagsagan ng bagyong Sendong. Kung ating babalikan, nariyan din ang libo libong larawan ng pagkawasak ng mga bahay at buhay sa Central Luzon sa panahon ni Ondoy,sa mga sandaling ito, nakita natin ang tunay na kulay ng bayanihan. Nakita natin ang pinakamagandang larawan ng pagiging Pilipino, ang puso na handang tumulong at bukas palad sa lahat ng nangangailangan. Hindi ko din pwedeng kalimutan ang pagdating ng bagyong si Pedring, nasa ating akala ay isang tahimik at mahinhing hanging habagat na gumulantang lalo't higit sa ikatlong Rehiyon ng Luzon.

Kung ating iisa-isahin ang lahat ng pangyayaring hindi naging maganda ang epekto para sa ating bansa, makikita nating ang lahat ng mga sakunang ito ay dala ng pagdalaw ni Inang Kalikasan. At ano nga ba ang dahilan? saan nga ba ito nag ugat? habang isinusulat ko ang article na ito, hindi ko maiwasang magbalik-tanaw.

Sa loob ng Dalampu't pitong taon kong pagiging tao sa mundong ito, ganon din ako katagal na kinupkop at inalagaan ni Inang Kalikasan, ang lahat ng mga bagay na aking ginagamit at nakagisnan ay galing lahat sa kanya. Ang hangin na malaking sangkap ng aking buhay ay nanggaling din sa kanya, ang lahat ng bagay na may buhay ay nakasalalay sa kanyang pangangalaga. Naitanong ko tuloy, sa kabila ng kanyang pangangalaga at pagmamahal sa akin, nasuklian ko ba sya? Naipakita ko ba sa kanya ang pag galang at pag mamahal sa kalikasang kanyang ibinigay at ipinahiram upang ako ay mabuhay?

Natigib ng kalungkutan ang aking puso, nagkamali din ako, hindi ko masisisi sina Sendong, Ondoy at Pedring kung sinugo sila ng Inang Kalikasan, upang ipaalala sa aking, inabuso ko ang kanyang pangangalaga at pagmamahal..hindi lamang sa akin kundi maging sa buong sangkatauhan..

Sa kasalukuyan, patuloy akong sumasaludo sa lahat ng nakikiramay at mga bayani ng mga sakuna, saludo ako sa mga pusong bukas upang tumulong at dumamay sa mga nasalanta ng bagyo at namatayan ng mga mahal sa buhay. Lubos akong humahanga sa lahat ng mga naging instrumento upang maipahatid ang mga tulong sa mga higit na naapektuhan ng mga nagdaang delubyo.

Ngunit higit sa lahat, dahil sa pagdalaw ng mga sakunang ito, nabuksan ang aking isipan na ang mundo ay hindi lamang sa mga taong may pansariling kapakanan, ang mundo ay hindi kailanman naging pag aari ng mga tao, ang mundo ay hindi natin pag aari upang gawin ang lahat ng kalapastanganan. Marapat nating ibalik ang pag respeto at pagmamahal sa Inang Kalikasan. Sa bandang huli, ang tanging kanlungan ng ating kaligtasan ay wala ring iba kundi ang pagmamahal at pag aalaga ng ating winasak na Inang Kalikasan.Matuto nawa tayo sa masakit na leksyong atin ngayong nararanasan...

Hanggang sa susunod na Album..

Narinig ko naman yung lyrics, nakita ko naman yung kanta
Nabasa ko halos lahat ng iniisip nila
Pero nagtatanong pa din ako, bakit hindi ako masaya?
Bakit naman kasi nakita ka pa,
E di sana ngayon, wala akong problema..

Pagtapos ng araw hindi din kita masisisi..
Hindi mo naman alam kung ano ang tunay na nangyari
Alam ko namang panaginip lang din ang dapat na isukli
Hindi naman kasi totoo ang lahat ng sandali..
Kumplikado nga ang lahat kaya hindi makangiti
Wala na ding dahilan pa, walang dahilan para bumawi
Mananahimik nalang ako, magso-sound trip palagi

Paano pare, hanggang dito nalang
Hanggang sa susunod na album, sa dating tambayan
Pasensya na kung hindi talaga kita pwedeng malapitan
Magiging kuntento nalang ako sa malayuan..
Ngingiti ako sa bawat mong tagumpay
Kasama ng panalangin kong, malimutan ka habang buhay..

A DATE WITH THE BLOOMFIELDS...

It was actually because of boredom that I have met this band and started to admire them. Honestly, I have dropped by to their booth three times before the show started. I have actually talked to the one whose standing at the CD booth to enlighten me of the background of the CD he is offering to me. I just got a nod and a shy smile from him. Then I walked away.

Having nothing to do, I roam around as if looking for something though I know that it was really a blurred plan of malling that day..indeed am testing myself if I can enjoy that kind of weekend without Ross. It is an open book that I am not an outgoing person, and malls aren’t my destinations when I get away from my busy schedules. But alas! That day honestly dropped a pinch of changes in me..a new repertoire of music..

Hearing and seeing these group performs on-stage is quite a different experience, the choice and arrangement of songs I can say is what drives the listeners and the fans to be stunned and remain astonished and fascinated in the allegro of their music..

There was an electrifying energy from the bassist aside from his perfect voice that gives a distinction to the melody of their song. This really cements the composure of the entire band. The rhythm and the lead guitars were blended enough creating a melody of both chirpy rock and roll and memoir of oldies. Plus factor were the suits basically formal but not too steep. And of course, how can I forget the cutest smile that I have ever seen from a band member..the drummer of this band has effortless in enticing every girls that catches his eyes (thank God, I was spared..haha)

My boredom from that weekend turned out to be a wonderful date with these guys, (of course they are not aware of it.. ;) ) . What is so funny is that, after the show, I was hesitant to advise Ross that I was out to watch an album launching of a band, (simply because he perfectly knew how I give comments to everything..hahah) but there was no room for secrets..so I told him thru a joke that I have witness and seen someone whose better than him in playing drums and bass guitar..haha.. know what, I was surprised, Ross was actually a fan!! Haha!!! He did admit that these guys definitely know how to use their instruments, and the charm they possessed.

At the end of the day, I go home smiling..from a wonderful date with ..the BLOOMFIELDS..

I lost my Phone today

Today, I lost my phone.. I believe that everything happens for a reason, we may not understand for a while but we know that deep in our hearts, God will never let things happen if it harm us. I honestly don't know what to say. regardless of how fast the trend into phones, I can't imagine how much this phone treasures every part of me. It really is a dearest friend. He is actually the portal of where my heart is. It may not be as expensive as you can imagine but the memories in it are priceless.

I lost focus in writing..my apology.

SI GUADA AT SI TUPE

Minsan isang araw habang nasa parke
Nakita ko ang mag among si Guada at si Tupe
Ipinapasyal si Tupe sa paligid ng parke
Habang si Guada, matalim na nagmamatyag sa tabi.

Ang sabi ni Tupe.. “aw! Aw! Aw!”
Ang sabi ni Guada..”hmm..hmm.hmm..”
Sabay tingin sa kalsada at saka kumaway
May tuta palang parang naliligaw..

Nasundan ko hanggang sa pag uwi ang among magkaibigan
Nakatingin si Guada kay tupe tila ba nagdaramdam
Sa lilim ng poste, may lungkot na di ko malaman..
Ang mga mata ni Guada ay napaka lamlam..

Napahinto ako, sandaling nagisip..
Matapang ba si Guada o duwag na tahimik?
Nagmamalasakit ba si Tupe o sadyang naninipsip?
Nagmamahalan nga ba sila o sa isa’t isa’y kumakapit?

NO RUSH...NOT IN A HURRY.. ;)

whoa!!! I love this weekend, though I really didn't had much time to relax because of my audit engagement, I still happen to appreciate the nearness of God. Sometimes, I really feel as if I am the song which I usually sings, sabi nga ng song.." just what is it in me, sometimes I just don't know what keeps me in your arms..why you never let me go..

Traveling in a strange places,where you'll meet people from different kinds of walks is not really easy, language barrier is the first thing to consider, next is their culture and beliefs, but as the song goes.."just what is it in me, Lord.." because in every travel and challenges that I face, never in a day that He lets me down. God is always there reminding me, helping me, and guiding me all through out my journeys..

At the end of every engagement, I thank God for bringing me home safe and still worthy to give Him honor and praise.

As how I have wrote my status, everything is in His time..no rush..no pressure..not in hurry.. for in God's time..ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

Rejoice

This is day 2. Everything seems so fine. I give my thumbs up to the technology for bringing together best of both worlds.

Well morning isn't that great, heavy rain pours, stranded in traffic, car accidents everywhere, to site, is the bus who fell from sky way early this morning, (thank God my sister isn't there, though she was traveling along that area).

Piles of work keeps me busy, dint have much time to sleep alas! God has given me enough strength to make each day and carry His flag. Of course, Ross' absence fills in the air but I know that God has His own way of teaching us lessons in life, I always look at it as positive though, it really hurts being so far away from the person you are with everyday. Lot of adjustments were being practiced, but as the song goes, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE with God. He is omniscient and I know that He wouldn't let Ross to go astray from Him, He'll guide Him as he did when he was still there, and He'll bless him as He did everyday.

The road may be too far from what is really destined for us, we will be facing different facades of life, hurts, dilemmas and everything, but amidst of all, it is the LEARNING that make us triumphant.

Doors cannot be close for any opportunities that may come along, doors should always be open for everyday learning, aches, pains, struggles and challenges, but at the end of the day, it is not the openness that matters, it is the many faces of life that enters and leaves pieces of knowledge.

Let us rejoice the gift of Life!!

DUMATING KA PARA MAGPAALAM

Hindi ko alam kung paano pipigilan ang pag luha
Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin ang paalam ng nakangiti
Hindi ko alam kung paano kita yayakapin ng para bang kadarating mo lang uli
Hindi ko alam kung paano kita titingnan na para bang nandyan ka lagi.

Ilang libong beses kong iniwasan na isiping malapit ka ng magpaalam
Ilang ulit kong pinilit na alisin sa isipan
Ngunit habang papalapit ang araw ng iyong pag lisan
Gawing manhid ang puso – hindi ko maturuan.

Naalala ko tuloy ang aking kabataan
Hindi ba’t ganito din na habang kita’y hinahangaan
Isang iglap nawala ka ng tuluyan
Nangibang bansa daw, ng hindi nagpaalam..

Walong taon ang lumipas at muli kang bumalik
Nagulo ang mundo ko na nais na sanang matahimik..
Sa pagbabalik mo pinilit kong hindi umimik
Pagkat alam kong dala mo ang puso kong umidlip..

Apat na taon na mula ng bumalik ka
Apat na taon nang ikaw ang laging kasama
Mukhang pati itsura ko limot ko nang magisa
Maaring bang bago ka umalis ay muli mong ipaalala?

Ayokong magalit, ayokong magdamdam
Wala akong hinangad kundi ang yong kapakanan..
Kahit pa nga ang puso ko’y labis labis ng nasasaktan..
Lalo’t alam ko nang “DUMATING KA PARA MAGPAALAM..”

SANA'Y UMULAN

Sana’y umulan
Upang maitago ang luha
Sana’y umulan upang hindi ako makita
Sana’y umulan, malakas, marubdob
Katulad ng pag ibig na ngayo’y tumitiklop
Sana’y umulan upang sa bahay ako manatili
Sandaling malilimot ang bawat sandali
Sana’y umulan, humangin ng malakas
Upang ang bawat salita ay hindi ko mabigkas
Sana’y umulan upang ako’y makatulog
At sana pag gising ko sana’y kumulog
Upang di ko marinig ang himpapawid
Kung saan ka unti unti nang tumatawid

Sana’y umulan, malakas,bumuhos
Upang hindi ko madama ang sakit ng pag-irog
Sana’y umulan upang hindi ko mamasdan
Ang pagkaway mong kahulugan ay paalam
Hangin sana’y lumakas upang hindi ko madinig
Bawat pag hikbi mong kay sakit.

Sana’y umulan, humangin, kumulog
Hanggang mabingi ako at makatulog
Pagkat di ko mamapipigil ang mundo
..sa pag inog
Di ko na mahahadlangan ang kagyat mong pag lisan.

KUNWARI LANG..

Hapon na naman uwian na,
Pgdating ko ng terminal, tatawagan ka,
Wala kong maririnig kundi payak mong pagtawa
at pagkatapos lahat ng pagod ko’y nalilinot ko na.

Hapon na naman siksikan sa terminal
Madami kasing tao baka di ako makasakay
Ayaw ko kasing matagal kang naghihintay
At baka pagalitan dahil di nakapagsuklay

Hapon nanaman kasabay maghahapunan
May kasamang kulitan,
Maya maya magkakapikunan
Uuwi ng bahay may konting tampuhan..

Walang matutulog hanggat hindi nagbabati
Parang mga batang pinipigil ang ngiti
Walang text, walang tawag sandali
Kinikilig naman, nagagalit kunwari

Hapon na ngayon..nagsasanay ako
Kunwari kasama pa kita kahit na tuliro
Kunwari kausap ka, kasabay, kasama
Kunwari nandyan ka, kunwari lang talaga..

-carmi-

Maaalala ko si Pedro..

Maalala ko si Pedro at ang kanyang mga ngiti,
Ang singkit nyang mga matang sa akin lagi bumabati
Maaalala ko sya sa bawat pagdampi
Ng hangin sa aking pisngi..

Maaalala ko si Pedro at ang marami nyang karanasan
Ang halakhak nya habang sya ay luhaan..
Maaalala ko ang lahat
..kung paano syang nasasaktan..

Maaalala ko si Pedro tuwing darating ang tag ulan
Kung paano nya ako binigyan ng tirahan…
Sa kakarampot ngunit tangi nyang kakayahan..
Maaalala ko sya at ang lahat nyang kahinaan..

Maalala ko si Pedro tuwing tag araw
Kung paanong ang pawis nya, sa noo’y nanukal
Kung paano sya magdamdam
Sa mga taong labis nyang minamahal

Maaalala ko si Pedro at ang kanyang kakisigan
Ang katapangan nyang humarap sa totoong kahirapan
Maaalala ko ang lahat, malinaw sa aking isipan
Kung paano sya maliitin at hindi paniwalaan..

Maaalala ko syang ngumingiti habang labis syang nagdaramdam
Maaalala ko ang lahat ng kanyang kalungkutan
Sa mga mahal nyang walang pakiramdam..
Ang lahat ng hirap nya’y hindi ko malilimutan..

Maalala ko sya at walang araw na sya’y makakalimutan
Pagkat labis ko syang hinahangaan
Ang tanging lakas nya at hayag na katapangan..
Ay ang malinis nyang puso at dalisay nyang kalooban…

Adios es a la vuelta de la esquina (goodbye is just around the corner)

It all seemed so unreal. I couldn’t believe any of this is happening, and a part of me still-in-shock. I couldn’t wait to tell him stories at the end of the day, which sometimes I almost exaggerates just to see how funny he reacts. But this day, there was not going to be any storytelling with him, no more exaggeration, any more corny jokes, and no more road sessions. It was all right, though, because by the time I had realized that I may not coming back and nothing anymore did matter much. Yeah, I really had a black sense of humor. ;)

Looking up at the trees, I know that I reached the turning point of my life. Yesterday started it, and I had some important decisions to make, whether to allow things to continue as they were, or to stop for a while and weigh things in their respective manner.
I know that the love I have given is a part of something the earth does not know about him, the real him and loved him anyway. Was not true love the most powerful drug in the world?

During the years, I had been enamored of him, that anything he did, I saw wonderful. The thing is, I had no idea of how to becoming my self again. When everyday is a good story book that you read with him, with new pages of adventures and laughter you enjoyed together. I may loose control of the anger, I may struggle and suffered to my idea, but that is just how it goes. You live, you learn, you give, you receive less, you love.

Points of View

Kanina while nakasakay ako sa bus, the song “points of view” keeps on playing in my mind, yung girl na nakasabay ko told me”ang ganda ng song na yan” that was the time, I realized that I am actually singing the song.whether I sang it well or not, the thought was that I am happy singing that song..

“..Here I am

I haven't gone that far away,

And since I am

The kind of friend you know

Would stay with you through all the pain

Never to leave you in the rain

Ready to listen to what you've been through

Your woes and blues and share each other's...

Points of view

We've been there once before

And kept our points of view

It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same

We have our rules in diff'rent ways,

We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes

And keep our points of view..”

Yesterday night, I receive a phone call from an old-time friend (Eduardo Mercadejas), hindi ko lang talaga mapigilan yung sarili ko to express how happy I am knowing that I am really blessed with genuine friendhip na kahit ilang libong tao pa ang makilala natin in our different journey, sobrang nabiyayaan ako ng mga kaibigan na kahit sabi nga, baligtarin man ang mundo, mahal ka, naniniwala at nagtitiwala pa rin sayo no matter how far the distance is. I am not perfect and no one is, hindi ko talaga alam kung paano i-express yung saya na nararamdaman ko while writing this passage, alam ko kasing marami sa mga kaibigan ko ang nagtatampo na sa akin because of lack of communication, I can’t afford to have time even for a coffee or a chat with them, also and dami ko ding na miss na special occasions in their lives. There were words left unspoken and things left undone, kung marami pa sanang oras for me to make it up, kaso tlgang wala na, I am on the run even on Sundays, at sobrang napakaliit ng chance for me have a good rest, honestly, I sometimes forget that it is a special day for me but amidst everything, I still believe that there is perfect time for everything, as what is stated in the holy book..” may panahon ng pagtatanim, at may panahon ng pag aani”.

Thank you so much.Hindi nyo alam kung gaano ako naging masaya hearing your voice again, knowing that you are fine makes me feel relieved as God answers all my prayers. Hindi man ako palaging nasa tabi nyo to comfort you and somehow gives you strength in times you needed it the most, but I swear, there was never a day without you in my prayers, that is (I know) the best thing my busy life can offer . I am not perfect, but friendship gives me the best meaning of imperfections, and one of these days, as we grow old, life’s imperfection is actually the reason why we live, why we love and we need a friend..
Cheers!!!!

..my heart will be settled...

Lately, I have been hurried by so many queries on how and when will I get married, hehehe..to tell you honestly, I don’t know. For a couple of weeks, my mind has been savaging to the idea of having my own family, yearning for a companion. And that is how my stress came to build up..hahaha!!! for some reasons, I easily get overwhelmed when a pile of tasks appear before me. And in those circumstances, am afraid of not being able to deliver it just the way I want it as perfect as it can be. A lot of friends known me for being perfectionist in some ways I also don’t understand. Maybe it’s just that I am making myself accountable for every task and situation I am into.

Honestly, I envy people who seem to be so careless to take everything and yet they still deliver the best in them. I want their brains seriously so that I can understand the way they view things in a manner different from me.

I kept telling people that I will not settle down until I am ready, ready to leave the things I have grew up, and ready to give up the tasks and activities I have engaged with for almost half of my life. Ready to leave those things that make me want to live in a single-blessed life. Well, most of my friends had already settle down, some got even married and live a happy life with their chosen long-time best buddy. Am not afraid of commitments, in fact, I have lots of it! Hahaha!!! Commitments to church, to friends, to relationship, studies, work..name it!! But my heart didn’t feel any better, for I know that amidst its busyness, amidst the things that it enjoys the most, this heart keeps on searching and longing for the most compromising commitment of all…marriage.

But the question is, how soon I will be ready to leave the things I have right now, will I am able to see things the way a mother see it? The moment this question strikes me, perplexity came along.

Very few people know that what I want when I settle down is far different from my lifestyle. I want a simple, peaceful and private married life. And these marriage ideas will not be possible if I leave everything unfinished. I have a lot of things to accomplish prior to separating my self to the environment I was known for. As what am telling a while ago, I always make myself accountable for the things I am into, and as of now, I am into politics, I have to finish this term with a legacy for my community, I want to share the best things I can to ensure that progress will come their way, before I settle at least, we can minimize out of school youth along the kalyes and by ways of the roads playing cara y cruz, I envision a community free from any threat of poverty and lack of education, I want to share a dream to my fellow colleague, to develop and establish a community of wisdom, of unity and livelihood, before I settle down, I want my community to understand the importance of UNITY and UNDERSTANDING, I want them to be inspire to share their lives for the betterment of everyone. I know this will take a long way aboard these idealistic visions but when I am done preparing their way, enlightening their paths, and ensuring my community’s progress, that is the time my heart will be settled.

Another thing, I have to ensure my family’s safety, my mother’s stability, I want her to experience life free from worries and painful things brought by poverty and striving hard to place us where we are right now, I want to accomplish at least something about paying back my gratitude to her, I want her to have her own business, her own will to manage and live life again, I want to build a home for her again, where she will be able to reminisce her moments with my father, I want to brought the world back to her. This may take a long journey of striving so hard, but when I know I have prepared the way for this, that is the time, my heart will be settled.

Relative to this, I have to ensure my sibling’s happiness, I look forward for a better future ahead of them. I want to see all of their togas, being able to see and read what is written in their diplomas are the best way to bid me goodbye to single-blessed life.

It maybe concluded that it seems marriage for me is a kind of separation to the place and the people I grew up, DEFINITELY YES!. Because when I settle down, I want to live in a place far from anxiety of the world. I want to keep my personal relationship with the Lord together with the one I chose to live with the rest of my life. I want to savor the simplicity and peacefulness of a sacred marriage.

When all these things knocks in my door. it’s time..my heart will be settled…

The SunKen Garden

Everyone loves flowers, the beauty of it is explicitly beyond description of God’s work.. When I was a child, I remember a cartoon series named “Mary at ang Lihim na Hardin” which came as my favorite cartoon ever until I grew up a lady. I remember how I patiently wait for the time to play its theme song, I actually sing along with it, memories came back when am secretly anticipating every clips of it as it was reminded over and over the television.

One of the episodes I love the most was when Mary found out how the secret garden looks like, when she happen to enter the sacred place for the first time. She was stunned for the beauty of the place and didn’t utter a word for quite a while. Then she found out that her mother really loves the roses planted in the garden that was the time she understood her father, she understood why her father wants her to get rid off the garden. Her father was so afraid that the said incident might happen again to Mary.

Mary returned home with a plan in her mind to relive the garden for the sake of her mother’s memory. And as soon as she was growing up, the story reveals that it was not actually her mother’s memories that keep the beauty and enchantment of the place, but it is because of Mary’s love for the garden, it is because of Mary’s pure heart that understands the need of the garden; to be whole again, to live again and to give joy to everyone’s heart that is longing to see the secret and enchanted beauty of the flowers inside. Since then, the garden was opened to the public, the story about her mother’s love for the flowers goes on and on along with the beauty of Mary’s heart that relived the sanctity of the place.

In our lives, we sometimes forget the beauty within because we are candid beyond the walls of our secret gardens; we thought that what keep us alive are the memories we keep inside its dens. But alas! We are blinded of the reality that plainness and the magical events outside the gardens are exactly what keep the beauty of it. It was actually what we are experiencing, love, forgiveness, sharing, understanding, and believing is what really are the flowers that blooms into it..

Yesterday, I feel as if I am Mary in her secret garden, but today, I feel as if I am her father, protecting all the secrets that lie behind the gardens. Tomorrow, I will be the caretaker, who will tell the whole story how it was called the sunken garden…

..bits of weekend..

Well, it was a weekend. Not overly exciting, but there were adorable tales to tell. I spent weekend at the session hall. Funny how just staying and mingling with the people within your community, listening to their concerns, feeling what exactly how they feel…it’s all fulfilling.

Saturday morning was spent in the office, while afternoon was consumed at the session hall, mingling with my community comrades, doing some of those things that is priority. I have finished draft of barangay ordinance solely for the committee’s program on comprehensive ecological solid waste management. The papers were just in my drawer, waiting patiently to be studied, revised and to be updated. Thanks God for giving me such wisdom and much time to accomplish everything in a day.

Saturday night which was supposed to be a dinner date happened to be a date in the supermarket buying things that will be needed for my committee and public forum the following day. Going home as early as 11: 00 p.m ( too tired..Zzzzz….)

Sunday was supposed to be a schedule for my music commitments however due to unavoidable circumstances and overlapping of schedules, well, as what is expected, stating an explanation and notice of absence in choir practice (religiously done for quiet a month or two, wah!!!! ) I woke up as early as 6 in the morning preparing things that is needed for my meeting, the agendas, the documents, the papers and of course whole self so that I can clearly discuss the things that has to be clarified and settled and need to be explained thoroughly to my constituents.

1:00 p.m.THE FORUM. We had a nice chat, and I pray that what has transpire during the conversation and the survey will be implemented across the community, I also pray that the acquaintance continues to blossom into unity and friendship within the people in my neighborhood. Then, heading to chapel, dropping by for choir practice, whew!! Very good timing, the practice has just ended upon my arrival..huhuhu… can’t come up. But at least I happen to spent at least an hour chatting with them.. it makes me feel relax. Having snacks with my choir mates while keeping each other updated really is something very enjoyable, the laughter of these young worshipers really adds up to my strength to continue serving amidst difficulty with my schedules.

Around 6 in the afternoon, my “irog” fetch us up and there ends the session. Deep inside I really want to spend time with him at least even for a while, my mind really seeks a handful of worthwhile and relaxing conversation, but my body seems telling me to have some rest since the following days will be spent again to work.

Poor ‘heart of mine’. I have to end ‘my weekend’ and needs to get ready for the busy week ahead.

Happy Day!! (Blissful Celebration of Blessed LIfe)

I feel so blessed today, having witnessed the beautiful creation of God’s Miracle, for adding another year in my life. I feel so great to be surrounded by valuable friendship beyond time, beyond distance..I feel so inspire having the courage of doing and choosing something that is beyond my expectations. My loving and supportive family that is always there giving meaning to my life. I feel so great of choosing to be happy. My life for the past 27 years recently brought me to this rule: Happiness is a personal choice and not the product of anything tangible and this rule is my driving force to achieve the ultimate happiness in simplicity of life.

Ross surprised me to have arrange a flower delivery for my Birthday even though he is in Canada already

Tulips were really is my favorite flower, he sent he it together with a love letter actually written by him..

God is so good for bringing Ross into my life, his presence is beyond material things that life can enjoy, he is more than a lover but a mere fraction of my life that no matter how the formula goes, he will still know the answers. It’s not I totally have no time in the world, but it’s about having so much of passion to fulfill in a very little time. Every single day is a journey of my life that I should not miss to Thank God for all His blessing bestowed upon me. Indeed, time flies, and our journey of life is the best teachers.

Thank you for another year of success, of freedom, of wisdom and strength!

Old Photographs

Sometimes, the best thing we can do is to look at the old pictures to make the memory anew. After a couple of weeks of non visiting my blog lots of things had happen and as usual I would like to share this in writing..

All of us have this precious stories that due to its priceless meaning in our lives, we cannot let go of it..neither we cannot tell these stories even to our trusted friends..I have gone through this..after all of that has been said and done, still your heart desires for something which you perfectly knows you cannot have anymore. Regrets filled your heart to know that those precious moments will remain precious and is hidden for the rest of your life and later on acceptance will come along..

“can we be more than friends?” why not, but why now? Regrets are fillers of life they are everywhere, they make us human, they let us feel the emptiness and in a while they will filled us with unexplainable happiness.

I have many regrets, many what if’s, plenty of but’s and maybe’s but at the end of the day, reality always prevails, that we can’t cry over spilled milk.. what has happened had happen and it will remain part of the past however it may cause us pain. As we travel along the roads of life, we sometimes choose the path less chosen, and I’m one of those. That no matter how convenient I maybe, I still chose the path which leads me into somewhere I don’t know at first and then later known how lucky I was for choosing that path. Yes, the pain strikes and it is something you cannot explain, the fear of letting go, the numbness that you have to inhibit, all of which are but a part of the current where our lives will meet.

Someday, we’ll see each other again, on that day we’ll be able to smile and say..”we can’t be more than friends, because we are exactly the best definition of.. FRIENDSHIP..

The journey..with Carmies

It’s not just a famous band’s name that conquers the heart of most Filipinos by singing the undying song” Faithfully”. It’s all about facing the realities of life. The further along I travel in life, the more it is evident that 

life's simplicity which nourish our heart the most. 

This day as I type these words I am recalling the conversation I had with my best friend Carmi (as we have the same names). As our conversation fluidly ranges from the many ways we treasure our comrades, our family to the particular way we each enjoy the fine dining, it blesses my heart.

I know it is her beingness, her unique loving presence that touches everyone. Her vulnerability which ironically became her strength. I realized that most of us are sometimes tuck in a path leading to the roads which are less traveled. Consequence is, we have to decide whether to take the risk or to travel the safer path. Sometimes, we forget about what companionship brings to us..In the instance that we come up to a “wrong decision”, we sometimes carry the burden alone without realizing the cause of why we have traveled alone leading to a choice to take or not to take. 

Again the formula of Life’s simplicity should be applied. Distribute our burdens, Share..Smile..and Forgive. 

There are no mistakes on choosing whatever paths that hearts or fate desires, it’s a matter of taking time to see beautiful things along your journey (don’t walk too fast, you might miss the blooming of flowers along the way). 

Not everyone will agree that Life is Easy,but everyone will agree that life is challenging yet simple journey of forgiving, appreciating, smiling and most of all…sharing..faithfully.