Dearest 2012,
As I am writing the introduction of this letter, I am also writing the actual content of it.
Well, how will I say goodbye to the most productive and wonderful year for me? If I can't have it written, then I would exactly disregard my chance to recognize how Great God is..
Posting pictures of my whereabouts was actually part of my "NO" lists, but of course to those people involved and are part of my "best" year so far, tagging is not a sin. ;)
I want to personally thank you and all the people who has been a part of my fruitful year. It has been a great accomplishment of both learning and professionalism. 2012 was actually the year of valuing what life is, the year that has thought me how friendship differs from acquaintances. You were also a revealing year for me, since I have recognize what are the things I love the most and who are the people I should be aware of.
You are also a reality check, because with your season, I learn to say "NO" and "ENOUGH". I managed to speak the real me, without fearing that some people might be hurt on hearing the truth. I finally accepted the fact that I cannot change the world. hahahaha!!! I cannot teach them to act and think what is ideal. In the latter part of your year, I conquer my fear of hurting others, of pleasing them with kind words and live by their standards..as a result I learn to be ME.
The first quarters of embracing your changes, I was quite unsure since I grew up living to other people's standard and expectations about me. I value what they may say against me, I am really afraid of committing mistakes.But as I am learning the game of life, I realized that people around you can only guess who you are, but they cannot tell you who you really are. And that is the point of my awakening.
Now, how will I say goodbye to You? nah! even after learning so many things, I can proudly say now that I was able to stand for what I think is right. I am able to stick to my decision even if the consequences may be far from the expectations of the many. I was able to say, I have protected my world, my family's welfare and my life's privacy.
Soon, you will be hearing news about me, it might depressed many, it might give a wrong signal to some, but for me,that will be the smartest decision that I had made.Quitting is not being a coward, it is giving yourself the best options life can offer.
Sometimes, you need to be a hero to defend others, but most of the time, you should be a hero to protect the welfare of the people dearest to your heart. You have given me the opportunity to serve to many thru different mediums and that I owe a lot of learning from you.
If only I could stop the hand of time and go back to all the decisive decisions I had in the past, I will. But God is really good for giving me You to awaken my senses that there is more to life than valuing others opinion. He is MOST GOOD for giving me another year of learning and consistency.
Thank you so much and to all the people who has been part of You. Your year reminds me that my dreams are not too far, they are just within my reach..but I have to let go since I have a handful of fears.
May your spirit journey again with me as I travel another year that will unfold more life-changing challenges.
Cheers!
Always,
Carmi
