...words are flowing..my heart is writing..

Friday, July 26, 2013

12 Things I'm afraid of..

 ..... no one will hold you when you’re down
......... no one will hug you when you need someone to comfort you
............ no one will understand you the way I perfectly do
............... no one will believe you the way  I did from the start
................. no one will tell you stories when you are tired enough
.................. no one will tell you how bad your day is
.................... no one will return your call
....................... no one will be there to catch you when you fall
......................... no one will be there to say “you look ugly and old, but I still love you”
........................... no one will tell how much you’re worth
............................. no one will be there to take care of you when you grow old..

And the ultimate fear that I realized I must face..

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Someone will take all these fears and conquers you.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Katapusan ng Simula...

Saan ba natatapos ang isang tula?
Kapag ba naintindihan ito ng lahat ng nakabasang madla?

Hanggang saan ba natatapos ang isang tula
Kapag ba pumanaw na ang may likha?

Saan nga ba nagsisimula ang isang saknong?
Sa taludtod ba ng bawat pusong nagtatanong?

Sa mundong balot ng hinaing at galit ng panahon?
Saan matatapos ang tulang nagsusumbong?

Saan magsisimula ang isang tugma?
Sa isipan ba o sa puso ng mismong gumawa?

Sa saliw ba ng musikang pilit na dinaraya
     ng tiim na damdaming sya lamang ang may nasa?

Saan nagtatapos ang isang saknong?
Sa bawat luha ba na pilit na ikinakanlong?

O sa bawat ngiting pinipilit iguhit ng alon?

Hanggang saan ba ang isang tula?
Kung hindi nya makita ang tunay nyang mukha?


Monday, July 22, 2013

No rooms for "Hi" nor "Goodbye.."

Early this morning, I was stuck in a question, and honestly, it felt like it was the hardest question I have ever heard.

I cannot make it in full detail, but it has something to do with my LIFE. Thoughts came running into my mind while writing this blog, it is actually a feeling of uncertainty about so many things. It was not how I have heard it 2 years ago. It isn't just a statement of planning about life and about how it will look like..it is actually asking  my life in a totally different perspective.


Now, in a world where only YES and NO are equally important, how will you say MAYBE…

Thursday, July 4, 2013

In Another Lifetime...

In another set of chances..I'd take the one I missed to make you mine..In another lifetime..

what can I say? I think, I'll have to park my pen this way..

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Yakap ko ang Kahapon

   

 Sobrang daming linya ang gusto kong isulat
Yakap ko ang Kahapon
Baka sakaling mapigil non ang luha sa pagpatak

Baka sakaling hindi na ako umiyak
At malimot muli ang iyong mga yapak..

Baka sakaling maipinta ko ang langit kahit wala ka

Baka sakaling marinig ko ang huni ng mga ibon kahit tuluyan ng nagiisa

Baka sakali..
baka sakaling malimutan din kita.


Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Carmi talks about Politics

Six Years ago, I have shared my life to the place I grew up with. I have rendered and exchange my supposedly “being an educator” (since I have passed my MBA exam that time to pursue my dream of becoming a professor).

It was one of the hardest decisions that I have made. Choosing the public governance to return back the favor and do the things that you have to do for the sake of your community. It was actually a crucial decision to make that time. After the first term, there was a pinch in me that wants to pursue public service and governance. However, I realized that the world is too imperfect for an ideal set up.

Being into public service requires a lot of courage and patience.  Facing challenges and every day issues is but normal part of politics. Siraan dito, tsismis doon. Rumors scattered everywhere, judging you without fact neither concrete evidence. These are all part of the political transformation that I once dream to change.

I envision a community with progress, with educated and disciplined mind, with mutual respect and understanding within the neighborhood, with cooperation and trust with their leaders. I failed. Because I envisioned it alone.

After several years, I found an army, persons that understand me perfectly, persons that will add value to the community. Persons with clear vision and have a will to political transformation. I feel a bit sad. Because, I also found out that I am not getting younger, that the six years in service made me realized how much more will I have to exchange for this “transformation”.

Then suddenly, I slow down, I finally learn to accept that “maybe I dreamt too high for my community..maybe, I opt to just let them stay the way they want to since I cannot stand the clamor”

I did not regret nor will I ever regret the day I join these brave people who stand for what they believe is good for the community. In fact, I salute to them, because I knew how difficult to lead a stagnant environment. A place where people don’t want change, or should I say, wants a perfect change but let their leaders work alone with magic. 

Yes, there is a silent majority, and they are silent. Too silent that they don’t realized that they, themselves are not doing their part. Too silent to voice out and cooperate instead of throwing bitch words and criticisms to these few people who stand in their feet and begging the entire place to come and cooperate with them. Too silent that they even forget how much things our community have lost.

I salute to my colleagues, and even though I know that there will come a time they will compete among each other, I keep myself mum and will not take any side because I know, I was there, I have listened to their arguments, and all of them has their intention to help and make a change. To lead the community.

In the end, I still want to believe to what I envisioned; a community with progress, with educated and disciplined mind, with mutual respect and understanding within the neighborhood, with cooperation and trust with their leaders.

To the members of Sangguniang Barangay..I salute you all!  Marami pong salamat sa pagtanggap at pagtitiwala ninyo sa kakayahan ko.


Six years has been a room of learning for me. It was hard, challenging but worthy.  Yes. After many times of thinking it over, I finally decided to say goodbye to politics.

Again, I am proud to say, I did my best, I have contributed to the best that I can..now I am heeding the challenge to the entire community. WORK WITH YOUR LEADERS!

Monday, July 1, 2013

The Wedding Song ;)


I'll let your thoughts flew away
Sleep in a million miles of clay..
We'll walk until the end of today
Tomorrow will celebrate a lovely day!

Loving you is much of what I can say
Since to grow old together is more a bit cliche
But your love really finds a way
And takes the tide to a merely sway..

Tomorrow is the celebration of life
The happiness I really cannot hide
Thank you for sharing and giving your life
It's a long journey and I love to be
....your loving bride.. ;)