Wrong Turn..

Being into Politics is not something I am regretful about, but, in one way or another it is something which if I had enough time to think over again, I should have not engaged into it.

Public Service is a noble act. It is the most expensive gift that you can offer to your motherland and countrymen. However, it is also the fire that keeps burning to flame up hatred and downfall, it is root of all evil.

ROSS..

After reading a certain post in my FB's wall, I didn't notice that tears were actually flowing from my eys.. its says:

Having read this article I realized that God really loves me so much to have given Ross in my life.. He is the most wonderful person I have met.

Lahat ng sinabi sa post na to were all true about us.. Ross is exactly the man in here..the closest person to my heart that knows me more than I knew myself.. the person I love and will always love to be with kahit saan ako pumunta.

He had seen the worst side of me and yet loving me dearly after all...

Then there was Jake..

The wind blows from beyond the corners of my imagination, suddenly there was a stranger who took the courage to enter my elusive life..

Blissful Night Facades

A not so traditional friendship sprouted from misunderstanding and arguments. I really find him so arrogant resulting that all of his transactions were taken care of me personally, making sure that everything has been set in manner that he can't say anything against my management.

Rain pours, I was left no where, I didn't know the place, the night falls so deep, striving to be back at the base, I felt so helpless, for a woman to travel in a strange place late night while heavy rain falls..it was a real disaster. 

Then there was Jake...

Receiving a call from him is something isn't expected. His words were so comforting. Asking me where am I, if am okay amidst heavy rain. I felt relieve. I felt also ashamed of myself for judging his personality.

The friendship we have is being nurtured until today, we agreed to keep it secret in spite of the rumors every time he is visiting Manila, am so blessed and really loved by the Lord for giving me the gift of friendship with him..and every time, my work does not fit at all..that stormy night reminds me that..

there was Jake.

Encrypted Goodbye

Dear Kyle,

Thank you for inspiring me in many ways, I may not be there to keep in touch, to return the favors, but as I have mentioned in my previous blogs, my prayers goes with you, that there be many patients be inspired by you.

I know, there were words left unspoken and things left undone but if you can still remember, part of our short conversation where I mentioned that sometimes, having a sarcastic humor pays a lot. You really inspires me in many ways.

Now, I have to go back from the time you weren't there. May God Bless all your ways, thank you so much for dropping by, now it's time for encrypted good bye..

Best Regards,
Carmi

Joker's Jag...

Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa araw na ito pero pakiramdam ko napakabigat. Siguro kasi, nararamdaman ko na that my heart plans to quit in this job. 

It's just hurting when people judge you when they does not even know an inch of your true self, but of course I wont blame them for that. My job requires me to be the most wicked and hated persona in the workplace. Of course, am not using my page to defend my self, its just really sad when the person stabbing your back is actually the person whom you care a lot. Isn't that nice of her?

There were millions of things for her to say that, but I will just name a few reasons why I perfectly understand why is she doing those stuff.

Naming a few:

1. She's just insecure, why not, am much prettier and admired than her.. ;)

2. Am not a trying hard Fashionista.

3. My body simply has its curves, without effort.

4. My skin is more radiant than her.

5. I work hard and get noticed by the management in a short period of time...hmm how many years does she's been with us? hahahaha!!! ;)

6. I am loved by many.

7. I can speak well and communicate efficiently.

8. I can stand firm with my decisions.

9. I have my own office.

10. I have what it takes to be at the top while looking at her down below.

hehe..;p 

See, I can be bad...very bad at times..its either you hate me or you love me, byways, I'm not gonna please you to like me..I have as much as many reasons to keep moving..

Rainbow in my Clouds

Sobrang dami kong gustong isulat, pakiramdam ko nga sa sobrang dami,  it was framed beyond words. Sa ngayon, am starting again for another series of medical consultations, honestly, seeing a doctor really frightens me,pakiramdam ko lalo akong magkakasakit but I know that theres just no other way to enlighten me of the illnesses and body pains except to seek for medical consultation.

Am just glad that someone is there to assure me of the things I cannot understand clearly about my health condition, ayokong isipin na grabe or sakit talaga yung mga nararamdaman ko, mas gusto kong sabihin categorically that I was just burnt out since I work really hard at sa napakahabang panahon, nakalimutan ko yung sarili ko. I have been very insensitive about my health and now, am facing the consequences.

This afternoon, I undergone another laboratory requests from the doctor, masaya ako if malalaman ko ulit that the results were all negative and normal kahit na somehow it will confuse me kasi nga alam kong am not really fine.

During these trying times, I still Thank the Good Lord for giving me the wisdom to walk in the righteous path. For giving me people who stays right beside me keeping me smiling, inspiring me everyday and unknowingly encouraging me to be well and pretty enjoy life to its fullest. To the persons who keeps me company during the down times, they were indeed a bessing in my life. 

Short conversations taught me great lessons, I realized that sometimes, strangers plays a very important characters in our live's chapters. 

Thank you for the courage and inspiration to move on...

" when you're away, I know you're thinking of me..

  when you're not here, I know your spirit soars with me..

  when I need you, you rescue me..

  because you're always there for me...

  you are the rainbow,

  you are the rainbow in my clouds...."

CRY for Help....

She's taken my time
Convince me she's fine
But when she leaves I'm not so sure
it's always the same
she's playing her game
And when she goes I feel to blame
Why won't she say she needs me?
I know she's not as strong as she seems 


Why don't I see her cry for help?
Why don't I feel her cry for help?
Why don't I hear her cry for help?
 
I wandered around
The streets of this town
Trying to find sense of it all
The rain on my face
It covers the trace
Of all the tears I'd had to waste
Why must we hide emotions?
Why must we never break down and cry?  

                           All that I need is to cry for help
                            Somebody please hear me cry for help
                            All I can do is cry for help

                                No need to feel ashamed
                                Release the pain cry for help
                                Cry for help is all I need
                               All I need is a cry for help
                               Cry for help is all I need
                              All I need is a cry for help

Why must we hide emotions?
Why can't we ever break down and cry?

                           All that I need is to cry for help
                   I will be there when you cry for help
           Why don't I hear her cry for help?

          All that I need is to cry for help
                  Somebody please hear me cry for help
                        All I can do is cry for help

         All that I need is to cry for help
         I will be there when you cry for help
         Is it so hard to cry for help?
Cry for help is all I need
All I need is a cry for help
Cry for help is all I need
All I need is a cry for help
                         Cry for help is all I need
                        All I need is a cry for help
                        Cry for help is all I need
                        All I need is a cry for help

                                 Cry for help is all I need
                                All I need is a cry for help
                                Cry for help