Te amo desde lejos

Thousands of distance are in place

There were many features of a poker face

Cannot reach the feeling of being embraced

There were mixed emotions of stupid race.

From afar I will call your name

With instances of feelings, I was to blame

I have fallen to this game

Of friends and lovers that should be tamed.

Should I say Thank you or Goodbye?

Then promise not to cry.

Should I say enough or stay a while?

Or leave the things that starts with Lies?

Can you give additional millions of being far

Where stars and moon cannot meet the sky

Can you just go away without saying "hi"

And leave the premises while friendship starts to die?

Saying Good Bye to Rx

Yes, there were points in my life that I have undergone confusions on whether I am sick or not. I have been into series of laboratory exams but no serious illness was found and I thank God for that.

As I am reviewing the past and all that had happen with Rx connection, I have to say, it influenced me a lot. It has change my perception about health, it elevates my awareness to take care of my self more cautiously.

I thought that these optimism will just last for a couple of months or a day, just like how I was hooked to some computer games, but I was mistaken. It lasted up to this day and I think it will last for the rest of life. There is more of having your self taking care of, you will learn many, you will be able to know more about your physical condition.

I am thankful that it happens to me as early as last year. And now, I can proudly say I have survived by the many effects those series of medical consultation has brought to me. My life is well versed now about how do I feel, I am now certain about what are the things that can ruin my body, that can cause negative effect on my body and will eventually affect my life.

Yes, I will now say goodbye to Rx and all the things related to him. I know the world is not too big to see the Rx very soon, but somehow, I have conquered it, I remain guarded and pure.

Celebration of Life: Carmi with a Thankful Heart

I must have done something really really good in my life that blessings continuously pouring out. I honestly don't know what to say, my heart is filled with gladness, with sincerity, with so much love to offer and a thankful heart that sees all the little things as abundant blessings..

I can't help but crying today because of unexplained happiness of knowing how much you are love and treasured by people who are so close and dear to your heart..

I never imagine that life will be as happy and fulfilling as how I am experiencing it. God is really good. He really love me for in spite of my imperfections, He continuously search my soul and leads me back to Him. I am His daughter, a blessed daughter, a well-love and precious daughter. Thank You God for a wonderful gift of Life. Though I know that merely thanking you is not enough. My heart will always praise You for all of what You have done.

The path I chose to walk with is not an ordinary path, it is filled with rocks and edges along the way, but God was there. He lead me, He guide me all through out, that no matter how hard the battle is, He fights with me and never leave my side..and after the day, we share the victory.

My heart is filled with tears of joy in realizing that the true winnings comes from hard battleship.

My life has never been so wonderful if not also with the people whom I shared my pieces, my loving family, my friends,the council members and staff, my team, my mentors, the people who believes and trust me in spite of my absence, and mostly to my prayer-partner, the best boy/friend...the one I want to grow old with..the man behind my smiles, my happiness and beacon, my tinker..my love..Ross. Thank you all for your coming into my life.

Life is indeed beautiful because of what God has given me. Salamat Panginoon, tinutuwid mo ako. I love you Lord. Thank You for this Life.

The Balloon Story - A Lesson of Personal Accountability

A man piloting a hot air balloon discovers he has wandered off course and is hopelessly lost. He descends to a lower altitude and locates a man down on the ground. He lowers the balloon further and shouts: 

“Excuse me, can you tell me where I am?”

The man below says: “Yes, you’re in a hot air balloon, about 30 feet above this field.”

“You must work in Information Technology” says the balloonist.

“Yes I do” replies the man. “And how did you know that?”

“Well” says the balloonist, “what you told me is technically correct, but of no use to anyone.”

The man below mutters “Thought so”, looks up and says ” You must work in Business Management.”

“I do” replies the balloonist with some surprise, “how did you know?”

“Well”, says the IT guy, “you don’t know where you are, or where you’re going, but you expect my immediate help. You’re in a situation of your own making without the right tools or planning, but now you are expecting me to fix it.”

Punyal (dagger)

Ang dami ng papansin, pwede namang konti lang..
Tama bang ilahad ang lahat sayo, para lang mapag usapan?
Lahat ng tanong mo, nasa iyo ang kasagutan
E kung tanungin kaya kita..."Bakit ka ba ganyan?"

Wala akong makitang mali sa kanilang lahat..
Mahal ka nila, pero hindi sayo sapat..
Ano ba ang gusto mong panukat?
Kung papansinin ka bawat segundo, iyon ba ay sasapat?

Pilit mong pinapasok ang mundong hindi sayo
Gagawa ng mali, magtatanong ng payo..
Paano kaya kung sabihin kong napapagod na din ako
Hindi ko na alam ang takbo ng utak mo..

Wala silang mali ni isa, wala akong makita
Sapat lang na dahilan, di ka dapat mabigla
Sa mga inasal mong tila pakawala
Ano't ngayon nangangarap ka ng mundong sariwa?

Piliin mo ang mundo, ayon sa gusto mo
Sapagkat kulang ang pangaral at sanlibong mga payo
Bulag ka at manhid, wag kang matuliro
Pagkat pinili mo ang buhay na madumi at magulo...

 

PLUMA

Naroon sa sulok nakakubli
Ayaw nyang makita ang lahat nyong mga ngiti
Paglipas ng umaga saka lamang dadampi
Ang tunay na mukhang may balot ng hapdi..

Tahimik ang paligid, tulog na ang lahat
Doon mo sya sundan, unti unti syang mumulat
Kukunin nya ang papel at paboritong panulat
At saka ang buhay nya ay unti unting idadaglat..

Pagsapit ng bukang liwayway
Ngingiti syang muli
Walang bakas ng luhang, noong gabi ay dumampi
Pagkat naisulat na ng pluma 
.....ang pagkukunwari...

Safety signs...resistance

I don't know how well you were trained
Spare me to be compared
My thoughts, you can't comprehend
You can't catch me around, that is my trend.

Smile for now, you have all your time
Rest assured to savour your glory before I took mine
You can't believe it when the time has come
The best things you have will be your worst realm..

just beside him...

Sa totoo lang, natatawa ako kasi nagsusulat ako ng tungkol sa mga bagay na ito. There were people na alam kung paano nagsimula ang relasyon naming dalawa. Napaka konti ng tao na nakaalam kung paano kami ulit nagkita at nakakatawa mang aminin "nagkakilala".

We are complete strangers when we meet each other again, malayo na pala kaming dalawa. We are keeping the relationship now for 5 successful years..at alam kong it will count more.

May mga blogs na akong isinulat tungkol sa kanya, tungkol sa relastionship namin pero ang nakakapagtaka don, sa bawat araw na aalalahanin ko kung paano kami nagkita at nagkakilala ulit, hindi ko maiwasang kiligin at maiyak.

Mahirap akong isorpresa, I almost knew a lot of surprises and of course the tricks to make is a success pero nung araw na nakita ko ulit sya after 8 years, yun ang pinaka surprising event sa buhay ko.

He came just in time. Nakakatawa nga e kasi napakaraming beses na din akong "nag emote" para makipaghiwalay, pero at the end of the day, iniisip ko, anong part ba ng limang taong relasyon namin ang hindi ako naging masaya?

 Naiiyak ako, kasi wala. Wala akong dahilan para iwan sya, para hindi sya mahalin, para hindi sya hintayin.

He may not be here physically, pero napakaswerte ko dahil kahit minsan hindi ko naramdaman na nabawasan ang pagmamahal niya. Kahit minsan hindi ko naramdamn na hindi ako mahalaga. There was never a day that he stops courting me.

Wala akong maalalang panahon na hindi nya ipinakita sa akin yung tama kapag magulo na ang lahat. I am stubborn, sabi nga nila intimidating ako masyado but this man makes me the real me..

And there is no place i love the most...but beside him...just beside him.