Rejoice

This is day 2. Everything seems so fine. I give my thumbs up to the technology for bringing together best of both worlds.

Well morning isn't that great, heavy rain pours, stranded in traffic, car accidents everywhere, to site, is the bus who fell from sky way early this morning, (thank God my sister isn't there, though she was traveling along that area).

Piles of work keeps me busy, dint have much time to sleep alas! God has given me enough strength to make each day and carry His flag. Of course, Ross' absence fills in the air but I know that God has His own way of teaching us lessons in life, I always look at it as positive though, it really hurts being so far away from the person you are with everyday. Lot of adjustments were being practiced, but as the song goes, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE with God. He is omniscient and I know that He wouldn't let Ross to go astray from Him, He'll guide Him as he did when he was still there, and He'll bless him as He did everyday.

The road may be too far from what is really destined for us, we will be facing different facades of life, hurts, dilemmas and everything, but amidst of all, it is the LEARNING that make us triumphant.

Doors cannot be close for any opportunities that may come along, doors should always be open for everyday learning, aches, pains, struggles and challenges, but at the end of the day, it is not the openness that matters, it is the many faces of life that enters and leaves pieces of knowledge.

Let us rejoice the gift of Life!!

DUMATING KA PARA MAGPAALAM

Hindi ko alam kung paano pipigilan ang pag luha
Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin ang paalam ng nakangiti
Hindi ko alam kung paano kita yayakapin ng para bang kadarating mo lang uli
Hindi ko alam kung paano kita titingnan na para bang nandyan ka lagi.

Ilang libong beses kong iniwasan na isiping malapit ka ng magpaalam
Ilang ulit kong pinilit na alisin sa isipan
Ngunit habang papalapit ang araw ng iyong pag lisan
Gawing manhid ang puso – hindi ko maturuan.

Naalala ko tuloy ang aking kabataan
Hindi ba’t ganito din na habang kita’y hinahangaan
Isang iglap nawala ka ng tuluyan
Nangibang bansa daw, ng hindi nagpaalam..

Walong taon ang lumipas at muli kang bumalik
Nagulo ang mundo ko na nais na sanang matahimik..
Sa pagbabalik mo pinilit kong hindi umimik
Pagkat alam kong dala mo ang puso kong umidlip..

Apat na taon na mula ng bumalik ka
Apat na taon nang ikaw ang laging kasama
Mukhang pati itsura ko limot ko nang magisa
Maaring bang bago ka umalis ay muli mong ipaalala?

Ayokong magalit, ayokong magdamdam
Wala akong hinangad kundi ang yong kapakanan..
Kahit pa nga ang puso ko’y labis labis ng nasasaktan..
Lalo’t alam ko nang “DUMATING KA PARA MAGPAALAM..”

SANA'Y UMULAN

Sana’y umulan
Upang maitago ang luha
Sana’y umulan upang hindi ako makita
Sana’y umulan, malakas, marubdob
Katulad ng pag ibig na ngayo’y tumitiklop
Sana’y umulan upang sa bahay ako manatili
Sandaling malilimot ang bawat sandali
Sana’y umulan, humangin ng malakas
Upang ang bawat salita ay hindi ko mabigkas
Sana’y umulan upang ako’y makatulog
At sana pag gising ko sana’y kumulog
Upang di ko marinig ang himpapawid
Kung saan ka unti unti nang tumatawid

Sana’y umulan, malakas,bumuhos
Upang hindi ko madama ang sakit ng pag-irog
Sana’y umulan upang hindi ko mamasdan
Ang pagkaway mong kahulugan ay paalam
Hangin sana’y lumakas upang hindi ko madinig
Bawat pag hikbi mong kay sakit.

Sana’y umulan, humangin, kumulog
Hanggang mabingi ako at makatulog
Pagkat di ko mamapipigil ang mundo
..sa pag inog
Di ko na mahahadlangan ang kagyat mong pag lisan.

KUNWARI LANG..

Hapon na naman uwian na,
Pgdating ko ng terminal, tatawagan ka,
Wala kong maririnig kundi payak mong pagtawa
at pagkatapos lahat ng pagod ko’y nalilinot ko na.

Hapon na naman siksikan sa terminal
Madami kasing tao baka di ako makasakay
Ayaw ko kasing matagal kang naghihintay
At baka pagalitan dahil di nakapagsuklay

Hapon nanaman kasabay maghahapunan
May kasamang kulitan,
Maya maya magkakapikunan
Uuwi ng bahay may konting tampuhan..

Walang matutulog hanggat hindi nagbabati
Parang mga batang pinipigil ang ngiti
Walang text, walang tawag sandali
Kinikilig naman, nagagalit kunwari

Hapon na ngayon..nagsasanay ako
Kunwari kasama pa kita kahit na tuliro
Kunwari kausap ka, kasabay, kasama
Kunwari nandyan ka, kunwari lang talaga..

-carmi-

Maaalala ko si Pedro..

Maalala ko si Pedro at ang kanyang mga ngiti,
Ang singkit nyang mga matang sa akin lagi bumabati
Maaalala ko sya sa bawat pagdampi
Ng hangin sa aking pisngi..

Maaalala ko si Pedro at ang marami nyang karanasan
Ang halakhak nya habang sya ay luhaan..
Maaalala ko ang lahat
..kung paano syang nasasaktan..

Maaalala ko si Pedro tuwing darating ang tag ulan
Kung paano nya ako binigyan ng tirahan…
Sa kakarampot ngunit tangi nyang kakayahan..
Maaalala ko sya at ang lahat nyang kahinaan..

Maalala ko si Pedro tuwing tag araw
Kung paanong ang pawis nya, sa noo’y nanukal
Kung paano sya magdamdam
Sa mga taong labis nyang minamahal

Maaalala ko si Pedro at ang kanyang kakisigan
Ang katapangan nyang humarap sa totoong kahirapan
Maaalala ko ang lahat, malinaw sa aking isipan
Kung paano sya maliitin at hindi paniwalaan..

Maaalala ko syang ngumingiti habang labis syang nagdaramdam
Maaalala ko ang lahat ng kanyang kalungkutan
Sa mga mahal nyang walang pakiramdam..
Ang lahat ng hirap nya’y hindi ko malilimutan..

Maalala ko sya at walang araw na sya’y makakalimutan
Pagkat labis ko syang hinahangaan
Ang tanging lakas nya at hayag na katapangan..
Ay ang malinis nyang puso at dalisay nyang kalooban…

Adios es a la vuelta de la esquina (goodbye is just around the corner)

It all seemed so unreal. I couldn’t believe any of this is happening, and a part of me still-in-shock. I couldn’t wait to tell him stories at the end of the day, which sometimes I almost exaggerates just to see how funny he reacts. But this day, there was not going to be any storytelling with him, no more exaggeration, any more corny jokes, and no more road sessions. It was all right, though, because by the time I had realized that I may not coming back and nothing anymore did matter much. Yeah, I really had a black sense of humor. ;)

Looking up at the trees, I know that I reached the turning point of my life. Yesterday started it, and I had some important decisions to make, whether to allow things to continue as they were, or to stop for a while and weigh things in their respective manner.
I know that the love I have given is a part of something the earth does not know about him, the real him and loved him anyway. Was not true love the most powerful drug in the world?

During the years, I had been enamored of him, that anything he did, I saw wonderful. The thing is, I had no idea of how to becoming my self again. When everyday is a good story book that you read with him, with new pages of adventures and laughter you enjoyed together. I may loose control of the anger, I may struggle and suffered to my idea, but that is just how it goes. You live, you learn, you give, you receive less, you love.

Points of View

Kanina while nakasakay ako sa bus, the song “points of view” keeps on playing in my mind, yung girl na nakasabay ko told me”ang ganda ng song na yan” that was the time, I realized that I am actually singing the song.whether I sang it well or not, the thought was that I am happy singing that song..

“..Here I am

I haven't gone that far away,

And since I am

The kind of friend you know

Would stay with you through all the pain

Never to leave you in the rain

Ready to listen to what you've been through

Your woes and blues and share each other's...

Points of view

We've been there once before

And kept our points of view

It doesn't really matter if they're never quite the same

We have our rules in diff'rent ways,

We play the games of diff'rent folks with diff'rent strokes

And keep our points of view..”

Yesterday night, I receive a phone call from an old-time friend (Eduardo Mercadejas), hindi ko lang talaga mapigilan yung sarili ko to express how happy I am knowing that I am really blessed with genuine friendhip na kahit ilang libong tao pa ang makilala natin in our different journey, sobrang nabiyayaan ako ng mga kaibigan na kahit sabi nga, baligtarin man ang mundo, mahal ka, naniniwala at nagtitiwala pa rin sayo no matter how far the distance is. I am not perfect and no one is, hindi ko talaga alam kung paano i-express yung saya na nararamdaman ko while writing this passage, alam ko kasing marami sa mga kaibigan ko ang nagtatampo na sa akin because of lack of communication, I can’t afford to have time even for a coffee or a chat with them, also and dami ko ding na miss na special occasions in their lives. There were words left unspoken and things left undone, kung marami pa sanang oras for me to make it up, kaso tlgang wala na, I am on the run even on Sundays, at sobrang napakaliit ng chance for me have a good rest, honestly, I sometimes forget that it is a special day for me but amidst everything, I still believe that there is perfect time for everything, as what is stated in the holy book..” may panahon ng pagtatanim, at may panahon ng pag aani”.

Thank you so much.Hindi nyo alam kung gaano ako naging masaya hearing your voice again, knowing that you are fine makes me feel relieved as God answers all my prayers. Hindi man ako palaging nasa tabi nyo to comfort you and somehow gives you strength in times you needed it the most, but I swear, there was never a day without you in my prayers, that is (I know) the best thing my busy life can offer . I am not perfect, but friendship gives me the best meaning of imperfections, and one of these days, as we grow old, life’s imperfection is actually the reason why we live, why we love and we need a friend..
Cheers!!!!